Maybe things in your world are going along swimmingly and then suddenly you get thrown the proverbial curve ball.
How you react to this monkey wrench probably says more about you than the sum total of your life thus far.
What would you think about me if I told you that yesterday I was feeling positively turgid for absolutely NO reason?
You would tell me to buck the fuck up and snap out of it wouldn’t you?
If you were my mother you’d embellish some story you saw on CNN news about Jimmy the poor little boy who lives alone under a Joshua tree because his entire family was eaten in a horrific manner by a lion pride while he watched and cried. Then you would dare me to feel poorly and have a bad day, because SISTER- there is NO FUCKING WAY you’ve endured that kind of brutal life lesson.
Some people face real adversity. Abuse, neglect, sickness ,death; horrors most of us can’t even comprehend.
I wonder to myself how I would cope with a real genuine problem and I thought back to my melt down earlier in the day when I failed to get the correct number of sugar spoonfuls for my morning joe and I decided to hang my head in shame.
I want to be good at life.
I want to suck the marrow from everyday with the same fierce determination I use to empty out the bottom of my strawberry frappacino with that giant straw they give you.
Just the other day I listened to some guy talk about what a drag his wife was. He was one of those men who complained endlessly about what a bitter shriveled up old harpie she had become, not even comprehending that the poor girl never had an angry, bitter or unhappy day until she’d hitched her wagon to his train and her youth, vitality and joie de vivre had been thrown under the wheels. Crushed instantly.
I began to worry that I was turning into one of these people who don’t see super opportunities to LIVE passing them by.
Should I pet my dog more?
Play more with the kids?
Spend more time laughing, even if I have to fake it?
All I know is, as I sat there worrying that I wasn’t chowing down with enough vigor at the buffet of life ,I realized that the crispy prawn appetizers are just the beginning and I need to calm down and not choke.